With my wife, Tess 39 weeks pregnant my pizza is about to get an undeniable upgrade to family size. I’m excited about a new addition to the pizza-party, but the anticipation of his arrival and the coming obliteration of my care-free lifestyle has me a little on edge. I know a new little pizza buddy will be the greatest thing that ever happened to me, but it will also be the greatest amount of responsibility I’ve ever taken on and my nerves are getting twisted up like garlic knots.
As I mentally prepare to split my pizza three ways I selfishly ruminate over all the ways life will change. Will I have the patience? Will I get enough sleep? Will my routines be disrupted? Will there be enough time for the things I enjoy? Will the baby even like pizza?
Fortunately for me, I’ve got one fantastic support system of family, friends, and co-workers who have done wonders over the last several weeks to help calm my nerves. Just last weekend I ventured to Sun Prairie to the home of my brother Jeff where Tess and I were guests of honor for a “Huggies for Chuggies” party.
There is nothing like the stretch of cheese between friends.
The “Huggies for Chuggies” party is sort of like a bachelor party for parents, where the host supplies food and libations in exchange for diapers from the guests (aka an excuse to hang out with friends before life changes forever).
For the occasion, Jeff provided pizzas from one of Sun Prairie’s oldest and finest establishments Anna’s Pizzeria. Anna’s is one of my brothers’ favorite spots in Sun Prairie and it’s easy to see why. Anna’s is insanely cheesy, I’m talking like at least a quarter inch of melted cheese across the whole pie. Grabbing a slice of Anna’s is half the fun because you get the most epic, food-porn worthy cheese stretches.
The sauce is sweeter than most but is balanced out by the saltiness of the excessive cheese. The pepperoni and sausage pizza was even better because of this salt to sweet combination created by the sauce and toppings. Anna’s menu is extremely old school and basic; pizzas with classic topping options, garlic bread, and soda, that’s it. If you want to get some Anna’s plan accordingly because they are only open 4-10pm six days a week and only accept cash.
Old friends and sage advice over Anna’s pizza.
Surrounded by my best friends and the cheesy pizza of Anna’s I found solace and my anxieties about the future began to lift. Beyond the pizza, I received encouragement that really meant a lot, things like “you’ll be a great Dad” and “you have nothing to worry about”. I also got some guidance about the day-to-day life of parenting which gave me more perspective. Soaking up some advice from some new fathers also alleviated a lot of the tension I had built up, I even learned how to change a diaper (thanks Aaron, Sarah, and Alex!).
The party was a great send off into parenthood. My friends helped me take a rational step back and realize the anticipation of becoming a Dad can be far more overwhelming than actually taking on the daily duties of fatherhood.
95% of things we stress about will not happen.
Often the anticipation of an event can deal out more anxiety than the actual outcome. My apprehensions about becoming a Dad are really just fear of the unknown. In the book, Radical Acceptance author Tara Brach makes the point that “the fear of pain is often the most unpleasant part of a painful experience”.
All the things that I’ve worried about will most likely work out just fine and worrying about them will do nothing but make them worse.
Dealing with the worries of becoming a Dad:
- Seek advice from someone who been through it before. Talking through a scenario can bring a lot of relief as we familiarize our selves with the issues at hand. We can learn and come up with a plan to guide us through.
- Try to remain in the moment. Try to accept things as they are, and to do that start out with some deep breaths. Focus on the feeling of your body, fingers, and toes. By focusing on our physical sensations, we are brought into the present, where the anxiety of the future is more easily released.
- Trust your instincts. Everyone keeps telling me that once I have the little guy, it will all come naturally. So, I will trust their advice and just take each situation as it comes, one day at a time.
What pizza taught me:
Becoming a Dad will surely be an adjustment, but as with anything new in life, we’ll figure it out. When anticipation of the future starts wreaking havoc on our emotions the support and guidance of loved ones can melt our anxieties away. Some extra cheesy pizza doesn’t hurt either.
What I’m eating: Anna’s cheese pizza and Anna’s half sausage, half pepperoni pizza (we didn’t even ask for extra cheese, that’s just how it comes!)
What I’m reading: Radical Acceptance: Embracing Your Life with the Heart of a Buddha –Tara Brach